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It’s funny how when you want something (or at least think you do!) you do everything to grab a hold of it. If it’s a material object you save up for it! If you want to become a musician/performer you practice til you perfect your instrument or your voice. If it’s of the opposite sex, you do everything in your power to impress them to start sparks.
Once obtained, after a few days or weeks, chances are the excitement of our “new thing(s)” die and that’s that! The material things start gathering dust after we’ve put it aside. The performing stops and the relationships go back to the beginning - strangers once again.

She can deal with stress and carry heavy burdens.
She smiles when she feels like screaming and she sings when she feels like crying.
She cries when she’s happy and laughs when she’s afraid.
Her love is unconditional.
There’s only one thing wrong with her:  She forgets what she’s worth!

Here I am emoting over the fact that it’s August again and I have no birthday plans.

I’ll be turning 26 in 19 days…Like WTF…are you kidding me?  Where on earth did the 7 months of this year go???  What the heck have I been doing?  Geezus!  I really don’t know what to do…I’m contemplating if I should even do anything this year.  Don’t think I’ll do a big one…Might wait for my 30th for a big one!  [I think I’m getting a little ahead of myself…thinking about the big three-oh already! Eeek…that number is rather scary!]    

I can’t say it’s been a boring half year cause I think I’ve managed to keep myself entertained and busy.

The highlight for me by far was my trip to Hong Kong in June with my brother.  It taught me to fend for the both of us as we were in a foreign country without our parents…It was different when we went to Hawaii 2 years ago as we were with our cousins.  I was happy that my parents trusted me once again to go abroad without them.  I’m rather excited about my next trip.  I’m planning my next vacation to be to the US as I’m longing to see my family over there.  I’ve yet to see some cousins as well as my nieces and nephews.

Right now…I don’t know whether to laugh or cry…

If I was given a birthday wish…it’d be to finally have a proper relationship.
Someone who can accept me whole heartedly and go through life with me as mature adults.  But who am I to wish for that?  There’s just so many superficial people out there it’s absolutely ridiculous!  It’s sad to think that looks are and always will be a big factor in any given relationship.  The way I see it is, if you can picture yourself waking up to the same face til the day they have wrinkles everywhere then you’re genuinely in love with the person you’re with.  If not, then you’ve got issues! 

I just don’t understand how people can just throw away something you’ve both worked hard on to build.  Does it become a lack of interest towards the person? One just gets bored?  Something better comes along?  Or is it because the feelings were just never really there to begin with?  Sometimes, people enter something because they have certain needs and wants…and if they can’t obtain it, they just decide to take an early exit…

I want to know the answers to my questions…someone please enlighten me…